Hollywood Woes

  Zara shirt, Citizens of Humanity jeans, Zara sandals, Dior sunglasses, Chanel bag

Zara shirt, Citizens of Humanity jeans, Zara sandals, Dior sunglasses, Chanel bag

Most people don't know this but, I'm also an actress/model on the side. Yes, I have an actual modeling contract and yes I've been on castings and I've booked jobs. I have an agent who takes 20% and I've spent time on set in a trailer for "talent only." However, admittedly, my star seems to be stuck on an F-List trajectory. I only say this because the last job I was booked on was for a public service announcement about soda, where I had to audition by playing phantom tag with a motely crew that included two elderly people, a douchebag 20-something F-list audition pro that had been on "hundreds of these", and a girl who didn't know how to play tag. Needless to say, I was the Gigi Hadid of that casting. My other job was for a Microsoft internal office video that nobody would ever see and nobody would ever care about because when I asked for the reel, the production company said "I don't know." You think there's going to be a happy ending to this post, that ultimately I'm getting my big break in a national commercial and I've moved up to the D-list along with countless other movie extras. But it's not looking like that's going to be my happy ending.  Especially in light of the audition call I got from my agent today for a solar panels shoot--which is always so sexy--and hey, to bring my husband too! So, I'm going to auditions where they are literally begging people to audition for them because even the real struggling actors with no money or food are like, this shit is lame. It's on Friday, and we'll be going because I don't turn my nose up at $$$ and somebody there might know somebody who knows somebody who knows a powerful person that can get me into a Monistat commercial. You know the big leagues. #playingthegame #stickingtofashion #imnevergoingtomakeitbigami 

  Svelte Metals and Hermes bracelets, Chanel bag

Svelte Metals and Hermes bracelets, Chanel bag